ok so my brothers are over to celebrate one brother’s birthday. said brother is bringing many friends. can I just say that having lots of people around me stresses me out. I didn’t used to be this anxious in social situations – I don’t know what’s going on. I’m getting more and more antisocial and anxiety prone. I’d just like to be in family gatherings with no outsiders. Lots of strangers + loud noise = very stressful for me.

Also am discovering that “trying to conceive” kind of kills my sex drive at times. I think it’s because I’m really really nervous to be pregnant. Considering I should be ovulating within the next few days, it’s crunch time. As it were. Making love perfunctorally is HARD. hubby of course can get going, but I might as well be watching my laundry dry.

I thought my new motto, courtesy of GC, was going to be living via faith, not fear. HAH.